Usually, I have to learn from my mistakes, but not this last week. This last week, I actually learned something because I did it right.
This is very rare for me. I am convinced
that, most of the time, God is sitting around shaking his head at me and
dispatching yet another angel to teach me a lesson “the hard way.” More often than
not, it involves explosions (sometimes physical, sometimes emotional). I guess
it’s just hard to get my attention.
But maybe this unique experience will
help me remember that I don’t always have to do things the wrong way first to
learn. And, hopefully, you will be able to take something from reading it.
This is what happened:
Over a week ago, I threw a pile
of clothes into my car and set off for North Carolina to be a groomsman at a
friend’s wedding. As I drove south, I had a feeling of dread. I would have to
drive back after the wedding reception the next evening (Saturday) and somehow
be a dynamic leader, a caring overseer, and (especially) a godly example to 150
people starting Sunday and lasting for the whole week. Why? Because I am the Camp
Producer and one of the main teachers for a program called iGovern. iGovern is
a weeklong camp for Christian students who come in from around the nation to
learn about how government works and to have fun.
It was on that drive to North
Carolina that I made a commitment: I pledged to myself that I would make a
conscious effort to show people around me that I really cared. At first glance
that might sound horrible. You might ask, “Shouldn’t you always be doing that?”
And of course you would be right. But I am not perfect, and, sometimes, I need
to take things in baby steps.
My commitment, however, went from
baby step size to something more the scale of surviving Mordor or conquering Teddy
Roosevelt’s ego (take your pick). I finally arrived back for the camp after an exhausting,
night-long drive. I was grumpy, and I thought I could feel a scratchy cold
coming on. In short, I was running low on happy juice and I was in no condition
to show that I care, let alone love, to those 150 people.
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But I had to try. I had to do my
best to show love and care in whatever I did that week. So, I stuck with it. For
example, I made sure that I was open to talking with anyone who came up to me if
had time (or sometimes even if I didn’t; I ended up missing a meal or two, but
that was worth it.). But even when I was reluctant, God encouraged me. God
showed His grace and used me-a scratchy throated grumpy vessel-to change kids’
lives. He used our whole team of outstanding staff members who opened
themselves and shared God’s love with the students.
Even before camp began, I was at
the end of my rope. I know that any love that people saw coming from me, wasn’t
from me. I don’t think I could have given anything more than a plastic smile
without a little (or maybe a lot of) help. God’s grace, however, empowered me
to have a great time and show His love.
Simply being willing to let God
use you (and showing that you care) can be HUGE! I spoke with two people who
said that my camp chapel message was a key chapter in their salvation stories
that happened last week. And after a week of countless conversations with dozens
of people, I know that, even if I never see the results here on earth, God was
using what was said to accomplish His purposes.
I am learning that the Body of
Christ is like politics; relationships matter. In politics, if you don’t build
and maintain lasting relationships, you will go nowhere. The same is true in
the Body. The Body of Christ is a built on relationships, relationships that we
should work on more often. I know that some of these students will go on to do
great things and I hope that I can continue to be a part of what God is doing
in them. But I need to remember that unless God builds the house, man works in
vain.
Usually, I have to learn from my
mistakes; maybe this time I can learn from a hugely successful week.
Post by Jeremiah Lorrig
Jeremiah,
ReplyDeleteWords ebbing from the watercourse of a humble heart transformed by mercy and grace! Nicely written testimony of how the Lord has helped you overcome. It is being made apparent through your testimony. Glad for you :)
Wow. This post could have been written by me... if I could write this well. ;) You did an excellent job of summarizing the wonderful and crazy week. I'm afraid I did not do nearly as well at expressing love, but there were times when Christ shown through and I was reminded of the immense value that comes in dying to self. Thank you for sharing and for the reminder (both in this post and throughout camp) of what it looks like to be like Christ.
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